Yesterday I informed everyone that I was stressed out and then I felt like that is very vague and I also realize how much I internalize things and how that in turn causes me to try not to vent too much, so who did I turn to?  Girl Scouts of America and their damn cookies, that’s who!  So, I’m going to lay it all out like an open book here or open blog and then you can all psycho analyze me..

My husband’s grandmother passed away in Taiwan and I have been very concerned about my mother-in-law.  She has been her mother’s care taker for the past ten years and I know she misses her mother very much.  I feel very sad for her.

My friend’s mom passed away just weeks after being diagnosed with lung cancer.  I am sad for their family.  It also brings my fear of losing my mom to the surface.  I’m so close to my mom that my heart breaks for anyone that loses their mom, no matter how old their mother may be.

My bank debit/credit card was stolen and I have been feeling pretty violated since last Thursday.

I’m dealing with these GS cookies lying around my house.

Someone trash talked me to a friend and it has been eating at me for days and days.  I think what is disturbing to me is I haven’t been caught up in Girl World.  I didn’t participate in B.S. during high school and had mostly guy friends in my early adult life and only came into circles of women friends when I had kids.  My women friends have been awesome, so not much exposure in my life to cattiness, backstabbing, two-face, manipulative type behavior.  I’m naive in a lot of ways.  I always think that Real Housewives is all made up because I just can’t believe that anyone would behave that way.  Ha!  What has eaten away at me is what was said wasn’t even true.  I go through life trying to be a good, decent, helpful person. If someone wants to trash talk me I can make a list of probably one hundred things in a matter of seconds to put out there, I’m human, but they would all be true:

I talk about working out and diets waaaaaaay too much.

I think I know everything when I truly know nothing.

I diagnose everyone including myself without having ever stepped a foot into medical school.

I often smell offensive because I work out and then run errands or meet friends for lunch (see there I go throwing in something about workouts again).

I’m very gassy and sometimes cut wind in public, silent, but deadly wind (I eat a lot of broccoli and beans (again with the diet)).

I talk really loud especially when I think what I’m saying is really funny.

I quote Star Wars too much.

I talk about Star Wars too much.

I could go on and on.  So, a lot weighing on my mind and that’s just a few of them.  Yesterday, after my WW meeting, I was talking with my friend, Colleen, who came up and gently patted my shoulder and told me to have a good week and to hang in there.  Those few words so genuinely stated to me by a wise and beautiful woman who I admire so much really put things into perspective for me.  I’ve been hearing her voice in my head all day.  I’m not going to let anyone else control how I eat.  I’m not going to polish off a sleeve of cookies because I am frustrated or have my feelings hurt.  I’m going to keep on going like I always do.  I”m going to keep being a stand up person, an honest person and share with all my readers that I ain’t perfect.  See that, I just wrote ain’t!  I’m a true rebel.

Next week is going to be a good week (sing that sentence out to “Tonight’s Gonna Be A Good Night” and it will really get you pumped up).  Who’s with me?  Who else is going to brush off the crap and have a good week?