Today was a much better day. I think writing about my feelings and what I am experiencing helped me. I sure hope I didn’t depress anyone with my last blog It’s a rough time, but I know I just have to push on through.
I would like to share something on a lighter note. I had an extreme day of working out, yesterday. I went to spin, worked my upper body with weights and abs, then went to hot yoga. Walking into a room heated to 90 degrees after I had already been working out was much different from the previous times I had entered.
There were three other women there and then a man walked in. He placed his mat on the floor and removed his long-sleeved shirt to reveal a tank top and some serious pecks. I don’t think that I have ever seen so much muscle on a person in person before.
As the class progressed, at one point I stood up and couldn’t help but notice that his tank top was gone. I almost felt like I should go over with a couple of single bills because with all the flexing going on, if the music had been more up tempo, I would have thought I was at Chippendales. Then I lost focus because I couldn’t stop thinking about Chris Farley and Patrick Swayze on SNL auditioning for the job as exotic male dancers. I was able to control any laughter and resume my in the moment om state.
Later, I realized that a woman in running shorts had stripped down to her teeny tiny sports bra. If the man and the woman had been on mats next to one another, I would have started to question what kind of class I was actually in, but fortunately they were on other sides of the room.
The difference between the man and the woman were their bodies. While the woman was at a good weight, she had rolls and cellulite (the kind of woman I quickly relate to), but they both possessed the confidence to be comfortable during that hot and intense workout.
Once the class ended and I left the room, I realized that my pants were drenched. I was soaking wet like I had jumped in the swimming pool, except I stunk.
The more I think about Mr. Shirtless and Miss Sports Bra, it has given me the confidence to wear my shorts to class. I will be much more comfortable and I can sport my cellulite with the best of them. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rLA3cdUt5to
